Hey, so I'm really afraid of the vaccine. Much more than I am of COVID. At the start of all of this, I was pretty freaked out by COVID, and I thought many people I knew were going to die. But here we are 1 year later and I don't know a single person that got very sick from COVID, much less was hospitalized or died. I know a handful of people that had it, but their symptoms were basically nothing. There were many high-risk people I know that I was almost certain would get very sick and/or die, but it simply didn't happen (and most of these people were very careless in terms of taking the virus seriously). I myself, as an "essential worker," have had to be out in the world almost every day since this all started. I've been sick twice with cold/flu-like symptoms, but both times had negative COVID test results. I'm not an anti-vaxxer. I have all of my childhood vaccines for measles, mumps etc. And I get the flu shot every year. But the speed in which the vaccine was rolled out combined with the degree to which it is seemingly being pushed on the public is causing my paranoia to go into overdrive. I mean, much of the response to the pandemic has been insane in my opinion, but we don't need to go there. Basically, in the end, I don't trust the government. I have no idea what this vaccine will do to me, and I feel like it's largely unnecessary for me personally. But at the same time, it would be a relief to not have to worry as much about COVID anymore, and if it could protect others that would be nice. Yet if I get vaccinated, I feel like my worry would just shift to wondering what effect the vaccine will have on me in the future. It seems everyone here is very excited to get vaccinated, and I am happy for all of you who have been able to do so. Everyone in my family is vaccinated now, so I'm the only hold out. I just can't shake the feeling that there's something nefarious going on, so I don't know what to do.